So,
I’m turning thirty-two on the fourth of August, and it feels kind of nice. At least I’m not crying into a pillow, falling
into a mild depression, and stuffing my throat with Ben & Jerry’s like I
did the week before I turned thirty. (I’m an emotional eater) I feel as if I am exactly where I need to
be--floating in a resilient sea of uncertainty and semi-loving the
groundlessness of it all.
With
that being said, I love my life in thirties. (Hey, that’s a cool book title) “My Life In Thirties.” I even feel more comfortable
in my own body.
Disclaimer: Such
comfort with body image is subject to change without notice.
Time
seems to fly by faster and faster, leaving me less and less time to make this
world a better place… and all that jazz. Leaving me no time, but the present to
become a better version of myself. Not
that I’m a bad person. I just never stop considering ways to evolve. Be
better. I have a thing about life and death, and it’s a good thing, too. How
else does one learn to appreciate all the small things, without first dwelling
on how little time one has to treasure them?
Oh, about the bad person
strikethrough... Not too fond of using the “B” word---Love the other “B” word
thoughJ…Bronchitis people;)
So
this is one of those blogs. A rare glance into how weird the inside my brain
travels. I could simply not think of these things, but what kind of
lesson would that teach me?
I’ll
end with this:
Last
year, at the Omega Institute in Rhinebeck, NY, I was able to meet/meditate with
Pema Chodron. She is amazing. One of her many quotes comes to mind right now:
“…feelings
like disappointment, embarrassment, irritation, resentment, anger, jealousy,
and fear, instead of being bad news, are actually very clear moments that teach
us where it is that we’re holding back. They teach us to perk up and lean in
when we feel we’d rather collapse and back away. They’re like messengers that
show us, with terrifying clarity, exactly where we’re stuck. This very moment
is the perfect teacher, and, lucky for us, it’s with us wherever we are.” ~Pema
Chodron, When Things Fall Apart
#jenniferpointsfingeratherself
<<< Yep, weird and random sometimes.
Jennifer
For your listening & viewing pleasure ;) Ani DiFranco, 32 Flavors
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